(This post is part of the Trust30 writing initiative.)
Prompt: Afraid to Do by Mary Jaksch
The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Emerson says: “Always do what you are afraid to do.” What is ‘too scary’ to write about? Try doing it now.
(Author: Mary Jaksch)
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My deepest, darkest, most honest feelings are too scary to write about. Don’t get me wrong, everything I write here is authentic, but I never pull back the curtain all the way. Honestly, I don’t think anyone wants to read that. More power to those souls who bare all and take the world along with them–it’s just not for me. Hardly anyone reads what I’m writing here, but it would be “out there.” Even as a kid, I didn’t buy into the diary thing. What was my guarantee that my secrets would really be safe?
Here’s a scary tidbit, albeit unoriginal:
I both crave and fear a serious relationship. Shocker! My default setting is single, and the older I get, the more ingrained that becomes. I’m used to doing things on my own and for myself, without a partner, and sometimes I’m afraid I won’t know how to make room in my life for Mr. Where-The-Hell-Is-He.
(See how I ended the “scary sharing” part with humor?)
